Missing and Murdered Children

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I am having such a hard time starting this entry. I feel angry and sad, but most of all I am feeling totally powerless. I have always hated feeling powerless in any situation. I know what it feels like to be a child and be powerless against adult abusers. Maybe this is where my feelings are coming from regarding this entry.

I also know what it feels like to be the out-of-control abuser. It was never a comfortable position for me to be in, but I got help before I crossed that line that I could never walk back across. It was not easy for me to admit that I hit my son. The feelings I had after I hit my son were extreme remorse, confusion and shame. I will never forget the look in my son's eyes.

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